What was the happiest moment of your life?

I hate this question.

I’m not an unhappy person. Wouldn’t say I’m happy either. Most days I barely feel like a person at all.

I could give the cliche day of my child’s birth answer, but it’s not true. I didn’t want to be pregnant, I didn’t want to be a mother, I didn’t want any of it. It took a long time for me to be okay. I am content in my role now. I couldn’t ask for a better kid and I love her dearly, but that wasn’t a happy time.

What else makes people happy? Wedding day? Never had one. Graduation? May never have that either. Dream job? Gave up on that dream as the college debt started piling up.

That’s not to say there haven’t been plenty of happy moments. All of my kid’s milestones. Good times with friends. Promotions at work. My dad surviving bypass surgery. Taking in that tiny kitten when his mother had abandoned him in the backyard.

I’d be hard pressed to identify a happiest moment, but I guess I am generally content. Is that what it means to be happy? I couldn’t tell you.

Way to dodge the question, huh.